I confess, I do not know where to begin.
Take any impossible and sad story you've heard about a husband and wife, tie it to a bungee chord and throw it off the edge without a safety net. I hate heights and last night, I faced one of my worst fears. The mother of them all. The initial silence was the longest horrifying rumble that shook me to the core. But, low and behold, the chord sprung back and took me to a new place. I'm alive and still deeply entrenched in love. Many tears and a very long talk later, then a few kisses and an embrace, we fell asleep in the same bed keeping each other warm as we had so many nights before.
Without exception, this feeling of pure unbridled redemption flows from the fact that I am married to the most amazing person I have ever met. If there is proof in restoring faith in humankind, let it be this woman. She is my best friend and that is the way it will stay. I love my wife. And there's nothing anyone can do about it. In the universal struggle between lust and love, for me, the latter has emerged unfettered to proclaim it's victory.
The future will always be unstable. You can't prepare for what's coming. If you think you can you are delusional. No one is safe from tragedy and the crumbling, rocks on that path before you are at times cruel companions. You can encase yourself in miles of bubble wrap and delight in other forms of soft, cushy padding and all you'll discover is that in the end, is you've suffocated after it invades your lungs like a parasite. My wish for you is that along with those gut wrenching moments you've got somebody waiting on the other end of the teeter-totter, to propel you back into the air. In my case, I didn't realize who I had staring me right in the face the entire time.
As with any high, one of my fears did come true. My brain is now clear, but now into hers I've dumped an entire lifetime of foreign notions. In a sense, we've reversed roles. She's trying to keep afloat. At this point, I can only ask her so much if she is OK. I can tell she's still reeling. She needs some room to breathe.
Oh yeah, and wild, naked dancing monkeys will probably help, we've got a couple of those, too.
We are sticking it out for the duration. The top priority now, is to stay together. For all intents and purposes, our situation is not changing. I am determined that this will make us an even stronger team than before. We will be a family under one roof and take the hits as they keep coming. But just try and stop us. I dare you. She says "Hi" by the way. :)
Since everybody needs a little love on V-Day and I am in a giving mood, go here immediately and smile.