I had a dream last night that was probably the most unnerving, explicit dream I've ever had. So much so that I can't repeat it's contents for fear of being accused of something crazy. It is poignant, but right now I just want it to go away.
Goawaygoawaygoawaygoaway. GO AWAY!
Unlike other nightmares, I didn't wake from this one paralyzed or paranoid. I wanted to throw up and cry. But I couldn't. I still feel like something might send me over the edge. In the end, it was the worst kind of loneliness, not that I was alone, but that there was nothing left for me with anyone.
The most I can say is that I don't really want any human touch for a few days.
Maybe I'll come back to it if it continues to haunt me but for now I'm trying to think happy thoughts to expel it.
Bah. It's not working.
I've never been so relieved to see daylight.