Wednesday, October 11, 2006

National Coming Out Day

People usually know my coming out story by now. My identity takes on far more forms than just being gay, but this blog will always have it's roots in my coming out. Secret Simon was born out of the will to BE born whether acceptance prevailed or not.

These days I find it's not something I dwell on. For me I count my blessings every day that it was swift and it's sting was minimal, like finding a splinter, perhaps stuck in your chest and working it's way to your heart. Had that thorn continued it's path I can't even imagine what damage it would have done. It had to come out.

I do look through those first few months every now and then to remind myself it all actually happened and I'm not dreaming. I keep things intact here as it seems I still will always find some kind of audience, as there will always be those who are inextricably stuck in their own closet. That's why I keep this around. That's why I came back to it instead of scrapping the whole thing.

Today I proclaim that I have no qualms about telling you who I am, without mountains of explanation or a prepared statement. The why is quite simple. The rest is just a long and often told history.

I have no idea who reads this anymore. But if even one person is able to find their gumption, one lost soul who feels he has no cause, I hope through reading these words that they are helpful and hopeful. They make it worth all of this. If this often scared little boy can do something of this sort, I'll bet you can too.

You know who you are. We are here to help.

So it's all there, if you need to know, you can start at the beginning:
Sweet Release
An Imperfect Number
One Year Later
How To Make Ghosts

Come out, come out whever you are.

More on National Coming Out Day can be found via the Human Rights Campaign.



Paul said...

You were the very first blog I read from the beginning ... a referral from boysbriefs. For much of it I read it in real time. You also posted the very first video blog I ever saw ... a shadowy figure next to the orange tree as I recall.

Not only does your art inspire me, but your story does to. You've got a keen sense of responsibility to youself, your ex and to the monkeys.

Thanks for sharing! And best wishes for the future.

Marty Gilbert said...

Simon, your a good egg, with a unique prespective on the world. Thanks for shareing.

Flip said...

I reads this. I readseded it before and I still reads it. Like Paul, it was one of the first blogs I ever encountered. It was one of several reasons I decided to start my own humble blog. My first post was a response to your request to see an image of what was on your readers' computer desktop.

As you have determined, we will never know the full impact we have on people, but it's a damn shame if we don't have faith that it's there...because then it may not be.

Take care.


Six Shooter said...

You need to come out ... to Orlando this weekend!

David said...

So glad to have you with us.